I seem to have misplaced my invisibility cloak.

I've officially made it through two weeks of my second semester. I've been exhausted since day one. My classes suck and I hate everything about all of them. But I'm okay.
Ask anyone from home. I've been a piece of crap friend lately. I don't know why. Why can't I fix it? Why can't I make myself?

I made a friend. There, I said it. Despite all my efforts to avoid that situation, I've finally given up on being completely alone here. I think it'll allow me to be happier. I've been eating lately. And it hasn't been alone. People are asking me to go to lunch and dinner. I've been invited to church. Heck, I even joined a bowling league with the girls in my hall. They're not all awesome or anything, but being around people and genuinely having a good time is something I haven't had in such a long time. And I don't say that to say my friends from home aren't fun, but when you're away from home for so long, a couple days of solitude can feel like an eternity.

This weekend I helped with a leadership conference that I attended last year as a high school student. I'm not really that outgoing and I don't get along with people well, so that was a big risk. It was alright. I liked the students I worked with though and now I know three new faces on campus. That makes things a little less lonely. I'm exhausted. I had every intention of coming back to my room and passing out for a few hours then waking up and doing homework. Instead, I went to dinner and annoyed the entire cafeteria with cackling. Then I was included in a group of friends playing game night. I know all of this is really boring stuff, but in contrast to last semester, this is so new to me.

I'm so tired of feeling badly for it though. I really am. I'm still trying so hard to be there for my friends at home, but I've been busy. I never thought I'd say that. I've been hanging out with a particular group of friends and one of them didn't return to Cedarville this semester. I feel like maybe they think I'm trying to take her place. I'm really not. I'm just really really happy that people are including me. And they're nice. A few months ago I would've said that everyone here sucks.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I think I'm enjoying myself..